this weekend is mother’s day weekend. i have always loved mother’s day, because i love celebrating my mom and showing her how much we love & appreciate her. however, this year it’s a whole different story. not only is it my first mother’s day as a mother, but more importantly, it’s my first mother’s day where i actually understand what we are celebrating.
i have always been thankful for what my mom has done for me over the years, but even after just a short month of having my own daughter, i have such a greater understanding, respect, and gratefulness for the sacrifices my mom has made for her family over all these years.
[thank you for…]
countless sleepless nights / always being there to put my pacifier in my mouth when it fell out / cleaning me up before yourself, so you end up being the one wearing spit up to the store / reading with me / slowing things down to let me snuggle with you in the morning / changing diaper after diaper, only to hear me poop in it 3 minutes after you change it / always telling me you love me / singing me to sleep even when you could barely stay awake to do so / dreaming with me / carrying on even when it seems pointless / knowing and tending to my needs even before i knew what they were / crying with me / punishing me / holding my head up when i couldn’t / constantly being patient with me / cleaning up after me / taking care of me physically & emotionally / believing in me / giving things up just so i didn’t have to be in my carseat all day / thinking about me more than anyone else ever will / inflicting immense amounts of pain & trauma on your body just so i can be here / never complaining about how difficult i can be / being my best friend / being the kind of mother i hope to be for my babes.
these things don’t even scratch the surface of all the things my mother has done for me, but these are some of the things i realize that i didn’t even know to be thankful for. so thank you, mom. thank you for giving up so much of your life & self for us every single day. i now know how hard it can be some days, but even more wonderful & rewarding at the same time. there isn’t anyone else i’d rather be like.
[happy mother’s day, i love you]