So today marks the end of my first month back to school, and the halfway point of the semester. In this next month we will continue on with material, push through to the end, take exams, and be finished with a whole semester of school. That’s the beauty of summer classes.
I wish I could say that this month has been easy, and that I am super girl and can handle everything like a champ, but I don’t want to lie to you. This past month has been so hard. So, so good. But so hard. Here is a post I wrote about a week ago with a little bit of my educational background and story. Also, a very raw depiction of a tough day in this first month.
Anyway, I really felt the weight of it all over this past weekend. Things had been busy with summer schedules, and I felt like I was drowning in school work. I felt like I was slowly losing who I am. Slowly losing the person that I enjoy to be around. The one with passion, excitement, and a sense for adventure. Instead there was a worn out, lonely, depleted girl standing in her place.
Thankfully my husband recognized this, and swept Faye and I up and took us out to the lake for the day. It was absolutely what I needed. I needed to sit and be still. To listen to the water, boats, and birds. Feel the sun on my skin, the sand between my toes. I got to read a book, just for fun. I swam with my family, ate too many Cheetos, and had my skin exfoliated by Faye 😉 I left the lake that day feeling recharged. Recentered. Ready to take on what was to come next. Ready to knock out the obstacles in our path in order to get us to where we want to be.
Now, it definitely hasn’t been all bad and overwhelming being back at school. I love my classes, love the challenge, and love the schedule. But with every good comes some difficulties, which I completely expected. Here are the main things that I have come to learn and really process through over these past 4 weeks.
- There are just not enough hours in a day
- Between wanting to play with my family, keep up with school work, exercise, and blog, I feel like I tend to kill it with a few things, and neglect the others completely, or I barely scrape by with all of them. I have had to learn to prioritize. I can not slow time down, but I can make the most of the hours that I do have in a day. And, I can cut myself some slack sometimes too.
- I am much more productive when I have more going on
- Believe it or not, my house is MUCH cleaner now than it was when I was just staying home full time. When I am productive in one area of my life, it bleeds over into others, making me much more well rounded. Because I have to be so intentional with my time for school, I’ve been that way in other areas as well.
- Relationships have been the first to suffer
- Due to lack of time, hanging out with people is the first thing that I had to put on the back burner. I used to hangout with 2-3 people a week. Either the lake, running, or just a coffee date. Now, during the week I don’t see anyone. If the baby is sleeping, you’ll find me with my nose in a history book. If she’s awake, I’m playing with her and giving her my attention since So often it has to be diverted elsewhere. One way that I have tried to combat neglecting my relationships though, is just whenever we do something that could possibly include people, I shoot out a text and invite people along. Whether it’s a quick run, or a concert in the park, those are all great opportunities to reconnect, even if only for an hour or so.
- Just because life is busy, doesn’t mean we have to pick up the pace
- So often I feel like when life gets busy, we all run around like our heads are cut off. We rush around trying to get as much done in a day, and next thing we know, it’s dinner time and then we go to bed and start all over again. In the midst of this, I feel like I have made a huge effort to slow down. Despite what my brain has going on, I want our home environment to be slow and calm in order to promote that sort of lifestyle. I don’t want to rush through our days, no matter how much we have to do. I want to slow down and enjoy the beauty of each day with my family.
- I love learning
- I have always been a good student, and never struggled in school, but I never really applied myself. I did what I needed to do, and then moved on to what was next. For the first time, I am really enjoying what I am learning. I love the assignments, and look forward to going to class.Now that I am able to take classes that I am actually interested in, I am engaged and excited. Not to mention, having a couple hours to myself Monday through Thursday isn’t so bad either.
- I really can do this
- I have dreams and goals, and I can achieve them. I can and want to do the hard things. I want to look back in 5 years and be so thankful for all the hard work I put in now.
*After this post, I really will stop talking about school so much. It has just been such an adjustment in our lives, and I have been processing so much, but hopefully it will just become our new norm. Just fold into the normal ebb and flow of our crazy life.
Thanks for bearing with me through this time! Happy Thursday, Friends.